Y’all, I Want to Buy a New Car.

What feeling do you think more stuff is going to give you?
Happiness?
Fulfillment?
Superiority?
Relief?

Think about what you have been desiring.

For me it’s a new car. 

Guys, I want a new car.

If I’m really being truthful with myself, I need a new car but what I really want is the feeling I think I will get when I buy the car.

I think I will feel accepted and admired.
If I buy the car that says, “I’ve made it!” then I think I will admired by other people.

Admired by friends and even people I don’t know.

There is nothing wrong with wanting to feel admired.

But in my case it’s a double-edged sword.

I also feel a little embarrassed about wanting an expensive, posh car.

Which means I can’t win.

I could buy the car and feel admired (maybe… that’s all conjecture on my part) and embarrassment (that’s for sure because I’m already feeling it.)

Or I could not buy it and feel deprived.
“I could have enjoyed the good life, but I’m not (wop, wop).”

But here’s the rub:
It’s not whether I buy it or not that causes pain.
It’s what I am making it mean that feels crappy. 

The only thing standing in my way is what I am thinking about having the car.

Embarrassment and admired vs. deprived.

I could choose to think thoughts that don’t cause embarrassment.

Like, “Everyone will love it for me that I can afford to buy a fancy car.”
Or, “I am an example of what is possible.”

I could choose to think thoughts that make me feel abundant, not deprived.
Like “Abundant people buy what they truly want.”

Or “It’s society that makes a diamond seem valuable or a Rolls Royce mean I’m important. I’m valuable and important without a diamond or a car.

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So, if I can buy any car… thrifty or posh… and feel awesome about it, which one should I buy? 

(This is where your money baggage starts bubbling up.) 

I’ll let you know what I decide.